In ancient times, sometimes known as childhood, there used to be these hours of dismal darkness which elders would call 'load-shedding'. It was an age when one understood neither load nor shedding. But one, of course, most diligently parroted what was said. So during load-shedding, since the world had still not experienced the light of inverters or the smartness of smart-mess (better known as mobile phones), one used to have the concept of light confined to the glow of a candle. A candle, then, used to be a simple white cylindrical object. If you wanted to be a part of the scantily lit room, you ensured you found a space somewhere in the vicinity of a candle. As minutes matured into hours with no sight of electricity anywhere and you did not quite know what you were to do, you began fidgeting with your fingers. And as soon as you looked up at the wall beside you, Voila! there was a new something taking shape out there - black amidst the soft reflection of the candle light! You stared at it, quite spellbound, trying to figure out what was going on and as you changed the position of your fingers, you found that the shape changed. You realized that you were the source of that little something black on the wall moulding and re-moulding itself into new entities as you changed your finger positions. It was fun. It was refuge from a lot of everything else without having the slightest idea of the bard having written - life is a walking shadow. Knowledge is beneficial perhaps, but certainly not essential. Ignorance is existential and, sometimes, yes, bliss. The line of demarcation between ignorance and innocence is surprisingly thin. Ignorant thus of dialogue-worthy worldly wisdom and baffling philosophical implications, you simply brought up the other hand and experimented further, until you had replicated known shapes and put them onto your momentary load-shedding canvas. You made dogs, human faces, rabbits, human figures, fish, snails, ducks, bears, flowers and what-not! They moved, they spoke and there you were - creating stories beyond the grasp of language in the darkest hours of the long day!
I have a faint memory, when on one of these days, I had my birthday. And back then birthdays used to be exciting for me. I was at my mamar bari, in Bardwan. We lit up as many as 30 candles all around the room. We also roamed the whole of Burdwan on my mama's bike in the darkness. Darkness is indeed bliss at times.
ReplyDeleteI still remember my father showing me how to create a deer, dog, elephant etc in this play of light and shadows. I am trying to do that with my son now. Will he carry this on !!!
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